I mean, Friends Only Time!!! :D


Imma gonna nuke my F-list, too. So you'll have to comment to be added, if you want to hear about my craptastic life 8)

I'm alive. Don't worry. Full time at Wal Mart. It sucks but its kind of fun. at least its not as bad as being unemployed. Life is kicking me in the ass. More later.

I'm watching Trigun, and all I can think about it Red's absolute obsession with Midvalley and Wolfwood. And I'm just like... I miss old days!

This is the situation:
I failed all of my classes in the fall. all of them. I got one Incomplete, but even that is going to be a scratch if I can't get back in.
Which of course means that I am SOL on a job situation. Because my job was through Work Study, since I'm not a benefit of financial aid I can't be on Work Study any more. Sucks! So I have no job, no where to live, and no school to look forward to.
I really don't know what I've been thinking. Now that I look back on it, I made some really really stupid mistakes that I could have done so much different. Going to classes all of the time, doing the work- it all could have been so easy. So easy just to pass the stupid classes i was paying for.

• Go to urbandictionary. com
• Type your answer to each question in the search box
• Write one of the definitions down that it gives you



(01) What’s your name?
Katie
the name katie is usualy given to one who happens to be exceptionaly well at pleasing their partner. katie's happen to be very good at making the opposite sex rather "turned on". one would not regret having been with a katie.
i want a girl like katie, one who can turn me on and tease me but do a good fuckin job at it ;) mmmbaby!

(02) How old are you?
24
What's so good about 24?

1) It's one of the greatest television shows. EVER.
2) It's also known as "The Jack Bauer Power Hour".
3) The show isn't afraid to kill off main characters.
4) Elisha Cuthbert.
5) It has insane plot twists.
6) It never gets boring.
"I need a hacksaw".

(03) Name five of your friends:
Jesika
An incredibly common name with a unique spelling. This "little angel" can be a little devil. Sweetness often hides naughty behaviors.
She is such a Jesika...what a mystery.
Josh
Someone who cracks jokes and roasts on people for fun. Someone who will stop whatever they are doing to make fun of somebody.
Man, that new kid Todd, he's a big josh, he's always making fun of somebody.
Rachel (i'm so sorry about this, but this is really the best definition...)
has a big but and i can not lie you other brothers cant deny when rachel walks in with a ity bity waist and a roud thing in your face you get SPRONG!!!!
hey Rachel. "WHo's There"
Sabrina
A sexual postion in whice the woman is grabbing the mans personnal areas and continues until the man screams "oh god!" or Something of that nature.
Sara
the best person you'll ever meet, not a slut or a hoe, but a gorgeous human being. well loved by many, feared by tons! she is positively gorgeous, FEAR HER
person 1:Hey did you hear about Sara
person 2: Shit yeah I did man I'm fucking scared of her

(05) What is your favorite color?
Yellow
Yellow is the colour that divides edible snow from non-edible snow
You shouldn't eat yellow snow

(06) What is your birthplace?
Illinois
1. A State in the Midwest.
2. An amazing piece of music by the artist Sufjan Stevens. Recently Amazon.com named it the best album of 2005.

(07) What month is your birthday in?
August
A month that has no holidays.
August sucks. Oh well, there's always school.

(08) Who is the last person you talked to?
Laurie
another word for the phrase "Elephants on Parade." or "Elephants on Probation."
That girl stomps around like Laurie!

(09) What is your nickname(s)?
Kate
A girl's name for the coolest person you will ever meet.
1. I wish i was Kate.
Squirrel
An evil little creature, that is seen in the forest or when your super high. If you ever see one of these creatures be aware that it is plotting against you and all of society. This creature is bent on taking over the world!!!

(10) What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
Vanilla
A song by the singer, Gackt. It tends to make fangirls squee and laugh hard. Especially the ones who've seen the live video.

ugh, whatever. got my DS, thats what was important I guess.

Ummmm, I dont post much here anymore. If you feel like reading everything I think, I update Twitter a lot.
Like... A lot.
I've done like three updates in 20 minutes.
God I love twitter.

http://twitter.com/squ1rrel
You'll be glad you did
or I'll just spam your twitter

Or both.

So I completely bombed this semester. I dont know what it was it just happened. About October, midway through, I just gave up.
Painting teacher said I might be able to pass if my final project wow'd him. It didnt, and my portfolio review was kind of like, "Why did you even bother to show up, its obvious that you're not going to pass."
English teacher said if I turned in all my work, I might still pass. I turned it all in, but again it was shite, and he failed me, too.
Sculpture was just a scratch after the first week.
I lost something that I had had going into the semester. And I can't find it again.
Where is the self confidence?
Where is the drive?
Its gone. My spark is gone. I dont enjoy much anymore. Drawing is crap, writing is crap, the only thing I like right now is reading. And I am reading. I'm reading a lot more than I probably should be. I think I've read 5 books in the past 2 days. I have nothing else.
If anything, its just an escape for me. I've always been able to get lost in books. So I haven't stopped. I just want to get lost in it.
Next semester, if they let me come back, should be much better. The classes are easier, and the teachers will be better. Not that the teachers this semester were bad, they just... weren't there for me. Not like I needed them to be. They were aloof, informal. The reason I go to a small school is so that I can get one on one help... they just never seemed to have time for that. Luckily next semester I've had some of the teachers before, and I know how good they are. Yay me.
I dont know whats wrong with me. hopefully my three weeks at home will sober me up and get me back into my groove.
Maybe I need to start journaling hardcore again.
When I was in Maryland, I'd wake up and write three pages of stuff, without thinking, stream of conciousness. I should start that again. That was good for me. Cleared my head.
And its not like I dont have 15 blank journals right now. Ha ha.
Ive been trying to write stories lately, but they keep coming out with the same plots as some anime that I've seen.
Stupid things. Whyyyy dont I have an original bone in my body? Jesus.

I feel like an idiot.
Go on, berate me.
I deserve it.

Welp, I found myself the perfect icon.

PROCRASTINATE
PROCRASTINATE


I fucking love Daleks.

I guess I'm the traditional type, but all I do is help out- making "Pie Guts" as my mom likes to call them, and just helping set the table.
I think when I get a family of my own, it'll be over to my parents' for turkey dinner a lot!!! ha ha.

ummm christmas card sign up. for anyone that still watches me and wants one. I'm offering 25, I dont think i'll get that many, I swear I'll send them out this year though. I have stamps. and pretty notecards that were on sale.
Just comment with name, address, and any character ref you'd want me to use. I swear I'm so out of touch with you guys I dont even know who I watch anymore.

This is pretty much how my mind functions while listening to music:

*puts on cd*
*sighs*
*thinks*
I wonder what it'd be like to be having sex during this song?
*sighs again*
*turns off music*


*shakes head*
Whyyy!

Also, it is 830 in the AM and I haven't slept a wink since noon yesterday.

I got this Annie Hall LJ Icon because I love that movie, and I have been saying La Di Da all week. *sigh* La di da, la di da. *shakes head*

Forever United as One
Together the Battles are Won
Let your spirit
EVOLVE
If We're All for One World,
There's a World for Us All.



happy birthday to me. :3

"Love is a silly complication of a pleasant simplicity. Woman is designed to please man. Man is designed to be pleased by many women."

-King and I.

If you change your mind, I’m the first in line
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you’ve got no place to go, if you’re feeling down
If you’re all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain’t no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try

Take a chance on me
(that’s all I ask of you honey)
Take a chance on me

We can go dancing, we can go walking, as long as we’re together
Listen to some music, maybe just talking, get to know you better
’cos you know I’ve got
So much that I wanna do, when I dream I’m alone with you
It’s magic
You want me to leave it there, afraid of a love affair
But I think you know
That I can’t let go

If you change your mind, I’m the first in line
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you’ve got no place to go, if you’re feeling down
If you’re all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best and it ain’t no lie
If you put me to the test, if you let me try

Take a chance on me
(come on, give me a break will you? )
Take a chance on me

Oh you can take your time baby, I’m in no hurry, know I’m gonna get you
You don’t wanna hurt me, baby don’t worry, I ain’t gonna let you
Let me tell you now
My love is strong enough to last when things are rough
It’s magic
You say that I waste my time but I can’t get you off my mind
No I can’t let go
’cos I love you so

If you change your mind, I’m the first in line
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
If you need me, let me know, gonna be around
If you’ve got no place to go, if you’re feeling down
If you’re all alone when the pretty birds have flown
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby can’t you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me
(take a chance, take a chance, take a chance on me)

Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me
Gonna do my very best, baby can’t you see
Gotta put me to the test, take a chance on me
(take a chance, take a chance, take a chance on me)

Ba ba ba ba baa, ba ba ba ba baa ba-ba
Honey I’m still free
Take a chance on me



:)

La la la. Maryland is great. La la la. Want to kill myself a lot more often than I'm willing to admit! La la la. I miss you all! La la la. I like cheese!

Salamanders, Goats, Wild Turkeys, Deer... My life is so exciting.


(actually, i just sat all day and watched TV. Its pretty boring out here.)

I want to go back to the beach!

( Josh is an ass. I'm done with him though. I haven't thought about him more than maybe twice today. Found a bunch of his stuff packed in with mine for some reason- dice, some Magic cards, and Boondock Saints. Oh well. maybe if he wasn't a jerk I'd give it back. I'm mean!)

Maryland my Maryland!
Went to the beach today. The weather was not good enough to meet hot surfers. maybe when it gets warmer. I'm working on it!

April 4: last day of work
April 7: Heading to MD forever

Bye <3