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So, Like....

This is the situation:
I failed all of my classes in the fall. all of them. I got one Incomplete, but even that is going to be a scratch if I can't get back in.
Which of course means that I am SOL on a job situation. Because my job was through Work Study, since I'm not a benefit of financial aid I can't be on Work Study any more. Sucks! So I have no job, no where to live, and no school to look forward to.
I really don't know what I've been thinking. Now that I look back on it, I made some really really stupid mistakes that I could have done so much different. Going to classes all of the time, doing the work- it all could have been so easy. So easy just to pass the stupid classes i was paying for.

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julius12
Jan. 10th, 2009 02:51 am (UTC)
Fuck, man. I don't know what to tell you. I can tell you one thing: you're never gonna stop feeling shitty about this, but after a while you'll hate yourself a little bit less. I know that from experience.

God, I don't know. The only thing I can think you could do is to just completely overhaul your entire life and give yourself a clean slate. Probably it'd be best just to forget about school entirely for a while. Beyond that I don't know.

*hug*
queen_mage
Jan. 10th, 2009 05:39 am (UTC)
Wow. You've made some mistakes.. but at least you recognize that. Fixing them... well, yeah. I know you hate wal-mart, but you could always re-apply, and just work and pay rent somewhere for awhile. If you need a place to stay for awhile, I'm sure you could stay with Krystal and I. :) And no.. certain people aren't over here very often at all.

I agree with julius though... starting with a new, clean slate would be beneficial.. School doesn't seem to be an option at the moment- so maybe find something steady... like work, I guess.

*ruvvles*
frostdemn
Jan. 10th, 2009 07:19 am (UTC)
Change is always a good thing. It's hard to admit that things need to change, I know this firsthand as well. If anything, just hang in there and keep on trying. You just need to find that little spark of inspiration to get you going. I'm rooting for you!
cherylkat
Jan. 10th, 2009 07:43 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Yeah that really does suck. It is painful how easy it would have been to just go and do the stupid work, at least passing by the skin of your nose, y'know?

Trust me though, that's what honestly got me through some of those horrendous college courses I had to take -- I knew, I just knew that if I started the downward slide, it would be too hard to stop. So yeah, I had to at times force my ass out of bed for damn organic chemistry or whatnot . . . but at least when I finally just got a C in it, at least I was done. O.o

Personally, I know a gal that had issues with school and she quit and got a different job, just general retail and whatall for a while, until she got motivated to do something else. Now, she's a massage therapist. While she was just focused on working full time in retail -- she had the opportunity to explore some other things, and found out that doing something different might be the way to go. Totally loves her job now. :)
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